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since Oct 2, 2007...

... i've finally remembered i have you to care about.... i didn't abandoned you, but you just slipped outta my mind *grins*.

You are there when i've needed someone to talk to, especially now, when i do not know what to do with myself cos it's yet another saturday, on the 3rd day of chinese new year, which doesn't makes any sense for me as i can't celebrate my new year this year, in remembrance of my grandma.

Didn't wanna post anything, but was scrolling my past posts, and saw the post about her, my grandma, my "ma-ma", in hospital, being bone skinny and etc, brings back alot to me.

It's my first loss, i thought i've accepted it, but i guess i didn't. I've not been the usual, crazy, irritating, crappy, nonsensical sab, instead, i'm become rather emotional, emo-sab. I wanna revert back to my usual self, but guess it takes time. It was a loss of a loved one and the part that worries me the most is seeing the whole thingy deja-vu itselfs again to my other loved ones.

In remembrance.

Love,
Sab-the-nut

Labels: emo-crapping

can't wait for tm to come....

god bless... HA HA......

hmmm....





i feel in love with the very very expensive blythe doll.. hmmm.. limited one you know...

Will this be my fourth blythe doll?

i need a fund for this precious..

please please let me win singapore sweep on wednesday!!! **pray hard**

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Waiting to get baked....

The final product... not very clear eh...

LOUSY CAMERA!

Labels: Marie Baking Cookies

Went for my first lesson of trial yoga at Absolute yoga... hmmm... not as easy as i think man. The heat in the room is solid! Before class starts, me and candice attempted to go into the room but we backed off upon opening the door becos you can feel the heat rushing at you. Staying outside the studio, enjoying the mild air-con is way better than the hot air inside.

A tip for peepz who has slow digestion rate, although you are told not to eat 2 hours prior your lesson, it's best for people like me with slow digestion rate to eat way earlier. The instructor adviced me to have an early breakfast and light one, and whenever you are hungry, grab a banana. It was really a bad experience man. Halfway through the lesson, you feel like puking, my food in my stomach going topsy turny, and you can do anything. I tried to resume or sip some water after some rest but it's far more worse.

The best part i enjoyed was the cooling down stretching. It was really relaxing and the cold shower after the 90 mins of heat yoga was rewarding. Damn i was craving for some icy cold beer but kinda stupid right? Burn away the calories, put the calories back, must well dun't exercise and torment myself!!!!!!

Btw, 90 mis of heat yoga burns off 400-600 calories. Absolutely interesting!

Perhaps peepz who are looking for a yoga centre can consider absolute yoga (http://www.absoluteyogasingapore.com/). Very clean shower rooms, something that i will keep a lookout for cos stinky and dirty shower rooms turns me off alot!

Labels: yoga

Holidays are here. Shall do something purposeful this short summer break.

Hmmm... what shall i do?

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Lifeless and abandoned since the end of that particular semester which i have to create this blog; the birth of this blog.

Today shall be it's(my blog) rebirth, just like that tamagotchi of mine. When your pet dies, you simply reset and witness the birth and replay all over again. btw, i just can't understand why is it so difficult to maintain one little dumb tamagotchi. It wasn't like this in the past. I still can rear 2 of them. Now! I can't even keep one alive for 5 days. I bet qx n candice will be laughing at me madly and feel relieved that they didn't get psychoed into getting a tamagotchi for themselves. oh ya. And baby will be blaming himself, why did he buy that for me, i cant even keep an electronic pet alive. My goldfishes died, tortoises died, even the fighting fish dead-ed. But hey, my darling miko and betty are well and healthy! CHOY!!! TOUCH WOOD MAN!!!!

I bet this is my whining place, not a blog.

Well, it's the beginning of my subsequent summer semester, Part II. 2 modules for this crash course 5 week period. Worse of all... i have to have lecturers from CHINA lecturing me. So i see China Lecturers every day at 9 to 12 except for thursdays and weekends. Imagine the torture i have gone thru. MAn!!!! They do speak good english, but they still have that accent there. And they are boring, draggy, lor soh, wat else!!!! One of the lecturer is the HEAD OF COMMUNICATIONS DEPARTMENT in University at Buffalo. A China man for the HEAD of COMMUNICATIONS deparment in a US university... ha haha...

Went to Milky Way, intending to just have a hair cut, but end up? Highlighted my whole hair. I still can't adapt to my new color, abit too loud from my darker color, but i'll get used to it, cos i wanted it. no one to blame.

Saw Grandma in SGH, poor thingy. So skinny. And she's coughing badly. Admitted to hospital because she has fever and bodyaches. It's her 2nd dosage for her chemo, and she's not supposed to have any fever. Heard Uncle Danny telling us the whole story. Can't believe that when we found out she has cancer, she's already into the fourth stage of cancer. No point blaming anyone for not finding out that she has cancer. Now, we know her time is limited, we should make the best out of the time, thought she has been suffering. She has been very strong on the trial drug, coping with all the coughing. I almost cried when i first saw her but she's so much better after that.

She has been smiling at us grandchildren when we were there with her. And i realised that we should not be upset over her condition infront of her. It just makes her feel much more worse. She's coping with cancer with a smile, and i hope that she will feel much better without all the coughing etc. Although i'm not really close to her, but i can feel the heartpain. She's my grandma. We do have happy moments together.

Perhaps when someon close to you is stricken with illness, you will look for faith and hope from everywhere. God Bless Grandma~!