Dear Blogblog,
since Oct 2, 2007...
... i've finally remembered i have you to care about.... i didn't abandoned you, but you just slipped outta my mind *grins*.
You are there when i've needed someone to talk to, especially now, when i do not know what to do with myself cos it's yet another saturday, on the 3rd day of chinese new year, which doesn't makes any sense for me as i can't celebrate my new year this year, in remembrance of my grandma.
Didn't wanna post anything, but was scrolling my past posts, and saw the post about her, my grandma, my "ma-ma", in hospital, being bone skinny and etc, brings back alot to me.
It's my first loss, i thought i've accepted it, but i guess i didn't. I've not been the usual, crazy, irritating, crappy, nonsensical sab, instead, i'm become rather emotional, emo-sab. I wanna revert back to my usual self, but guess it takes time. It was a loss of a loved one and the part that worries me the most is seeing the whole thingy deja-vu itselfs again to my other loved ones.
In remembrance.
Love,
Sab-the-nut
... i've finally remembered i have you to care about.... i didn't abandoned you, but you just slipped outta my mind *grins*.
You are there when i've needed someone to talk to, especially now, when i do not know what to do with myself cos it's yet another saturday, on the 3rd day of chinese new year, which doesn't makes any sense for me as i can't celebrate my new year this year, in remembrance of my grandma.
Didn't wanna post anything, but was scrolling my past posts, and saw the post about her, my grandma, my "ma-ma", in hospital, being bone skinny and etc, brings back alot to me.
It's my first loss, i thought i've accepted it, but i guess i didn't. I've not been the usual, crazy, irritating, crappy, nonsensical sab, instead, i'm become rather emotional, emo-sab. I wanna revert back to my usual self, but guess it takes time. It was a loss of a loved one and the part that worries me the most is seeing the whole thingy deja-vu itselfs again to my other loved ones.
In remembrance.
Love,
Sab-the-nut
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